Sweet Death

A bomb is inside me
It’s foreboding to explode
How much time left?
One minute?
Two?
Or three minutes, I guess.
Am I afraid?
No, not really.
For I’ve prepared myself
To this kind of adversity.

Something enswathe me
Million pins perhaps
They tear my heart apart
And it hurts like hell
Such an exquisite pain.
I smell my blood
Rushing through my veins
How would it feel to taste it?
If the bomb explode,
This lament would end
It would rip me into pieces
Including my frail heart.
Then I would be free
Free from this folly
Free from this animosity
And definitely free from you.

So now I sit on your lap
With this enlightened thoughts of suicide
I wait for my final breath
In your arms,
I’d welcome sweet death.

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Madness

Here it goes again..

Reeling emotion
It looms over me
Something whimsical
The one that makes me shudder
Such an awkward predicament
It baffles me…
Like a labyrinth,
I wander through it everyday
Madness… I’d rather call it madness
It’s the secret I harbour
That never will I unveil
I’m a forlorn star
Adrift in nothingness
Then I found myself drowning
By something overpowering
It’s my love for you
That I want to resist
I tried to stifle it
Yet it was fervent
It makes me weak
How will I ever escape?
Evanescent, I thought it would be
But now it seems like eternity
Profound.. uncontrollable..
It does not dwindle
It’s not a sham
Not a hypocrisy
And it’s beginning to dominate me
What are the odds you would notice it?
You don’t even look at me
I ache inside
Can’t you see my tears?
You are elusive.. indifferent..
Sensitivity has lost its particles in you
My heart beats for you
But you don’t hear it
So I tried to muffle its cries
It’s not easy though..
You live in your own world-
A place I can’t enter
Now I’m meandering
Lost and confused..
And I’m getting scared
For my feelings don’t seem to wane
Swiftly, I fall
Would you bother catch me?
Or should I face this adversity?
I’m clueless
It’s such a torment
Madness has gotten in me
When I forfeit,
Would you let me fade into oblivion?
Or from this murky state..
Would you come and rescue me?

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Could This be Love?

Sometimes I wonder
What’s this spell I’m under
There’s something in you
That makes me feel brand new.

When I looked into your eyes,
I was stunned and mesmerized
When I saw your smile,
I was charmed for a while.

Could this be love?
Something sent from God above
Yet I know it’s just a fantasy
Loving you would be sheer lunacy.

Still can’t believe you saw me
Thought I’m just in a deep reverie
But from the moment I looked at you,
I knew that what we have is true.

You are an answered prayer
Wish it would last forever
You started my life once again
I knew you were the one then.

How did you find me
In this world of uncertainty
You came into my heart like a tempest
Yet in your arms, I could finally rest.

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Affinity for the Rain

Soft drops fell with the wind.
I watched the rain fall diagonally from the sky,
And for a moment,
I let it hit my face.
And oh, I loved the feeling!
I always liked the rain even as a young girl.
It just seemed romantic to me.

I closed my eyes
And felt a gentle breeze wafting my hair.
It gave me a sweet touch of serenity.
The sprinkle was mild, it made me purified.
Would I succumb to this kind of feeling?
Everything seemed nice,
Close to perfect..
A fleeting glimpse of eternity.
But slowly, I sank deep in a reverie.
Memories of you came rushing in my mind..
Memories that would be forever kept.

I then noticed a tear fell from my eyes.
Like the rain, it showered down my face.
Why?
Because I was here and you were there.
A pang of gloom enshrouds me
For I need you here with me.
I’m just glad the rain muffled the cries I have inside.

I whispered to the wind,
Wishing it would reach you.
But you seemed so far,
I couldn’t get near you.
I wish I could just be like the rain…
Gently kissing your eyes and washing away the tears…
Vitalizing your heart and curing the sorrow inside.
And like the rain,

I’d be forever falling for you. ♥

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My Sweetest Foible

A breath of a life gone by
Madness that is now quite high
Nothing left but a poignant love inside
With my eyes whose uncried tears have dried.

The stars are cold and indifferent
Just like the moments with you I spent
Deep pain runs through me tonight
It haunts me even when you’re out of sight.

My body shivers with a cold that will never go away
The feelings I have for you just lead me astray
You came into my heart then you tore it open
Its scars remind me that I am vastly broken.
I miss you, my sweetest foible
To survive this agony, I guess I’m too feeble
Now my heart is empty and bleeding, I bet
And I’m going through the right amount of death.

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Oblivious

I witness the starless sky cry slowly
As it drink and drown out to melancholy
And wrap itself up in misery
Just like you breaking up in agony.

You struggle to hide it but the pain still shows
The torment inside you, it overflows
The shadows of your past that can’t let you go
So now I’m here, trying to heal your sorrow.

It’s the wound in your heart I want to mend
And the woe of your soul I wish to descend
I’m dying to glimpse your sweetest smile
To glance the gleam in your eyes, I’ll run every mile.

You are oblivious of how much ache I feel
Every time I see the grief you’re trying to conceal
I want you to know you are my everything
When for you, I am merely nothing.

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My Hero

In this lonely little world of mine
Where candles melt out after a while,
Something cripples me, stops me from going on
But you saved me from turning into oblivion.

When I weep in the rain so cold,
You came up to me, I have someone to hold
When darkness scares me to death at night,
Your eyes is my fire burning bright.

As the chaotic world tries to welcome me,
You give me a sweet piece of serenity
My hero, that’s what I’ll call you, dear
For I have found in you my way so clear.

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